I guessed he had successfully mollify my anger by updating the blog.Hmm...yet I would like to post up this written piece (was written on Sunday).
Sometimes, guys just don't understand the thing that girl desires for or wants is very simple i.e. to be loved or cared. Well, I'm just a simple lady who is kind of sensitive nowadays. I do believe that he doesn't realize that I had actually angry of him these few days. HuH...The followings are the unspeakable mind:
Honestly speaking, I 'm quite satisfied with the current relationship and do hoped to settle down already. It's not a cinch to find the right person at the right time. I can't be sure that this guy will be the final man in my life, yet I am very sure that I very love him as I could very mind of his every single word. (I think he doesn't realize this.) I do wish that we can progress to higher level and appreciation+love+tolerance will be enhanced through the relationship.I hope it will last with fruitful felicity.
I noticed that I treat him differently towards the previous bf in which I always miss him, always hope to talk to him, willing to cook for him although I just knew the brief recipes, remember what he said and even open a particular website to share my thoughts. This guy is kinda special. He is quite mature in thinking and decision-making, a sporting guy and surprisingly, he knows how to cook and has boundless knowledge on computer software and hardware. He treats me quite well so far as willing to cycle to my house after classes and cook for me. We had cooked for each on 24Th of July 2010 and it was my first time to cook for a guy whom I love.
Our 2nd outing was on 1st of August and we went for a movie. Hmm..I was quite unhappy as the first thing he spoke to me when seeing me was scolding me because I was wanted to go down from the bus to his hostel area. HUH!!! Ain't it's supposed to be talk nicely when seeing your girl huh? Yet, I had got the scolding in the early morning and he did not have me acknowledged the exact place we were headed to. Haiz...
It was a nice movie although I still preferred the cinema in Batu Pahat as it's more spacious than in Carrefour. Hmm...his arms are really warm to be hugged. Well, is that so weird that a girl hugged a guy's hand huh? Haiz... I did have taken up courage to hug his arm le..yet being said as seducing him!!!GOSH~~~~ So embarrassing! I will never hug his arms anymore! In the evening, he came over for cooking one of my favourite foods i.e. spaghetti. I admitted that I really wish him could come over to cook it, yet it was 100% okay if he did not come over as I knew he was very tired that day...Hmm..perhaps should not ask him to go out for movie that day. Kinda guilty of it. Yet, due to opening the plastic bags of spaghetti and crab sticks wrongly, I had been scolded. Huh..compared to plastic bags, seem like plastic bag that contains the spaghetti is more worth for his love!!!ISH!...I wondered what will happened if I accidentally spoiled his favourite thing..will he abuse me huh?Huh... he could notice I am angry but he never try to understand why I am angry of...Obviously, he still doesn't understand me well.
He never know that I could be mind of his act or words. Hmm..holding hands are supposed to be sweet thing couples do, yet he thinks that it's kinda childish..Furthermore, he likes kidding me that I am too short compared to him when waking together... Nah..another thing, did not view those videos meant not sex-educated and immature. Then, hugging his arms considered seducing..Huh...Somehow, it made me wondering that why he chose me as his gf since I am short( no matter I undergo what strengthening bones process, the most also grow up to 3cm++), not mature, not pretty,does not know how to cook and bla bla bla. Well, after knowing from the girls' talk, I only realized that guy hates their gfs asking them to find another as sounding like not appreciate him and like not committing the relationship with heart and soul. Sorry about that as I think that frequently said sentence had been hurt your feeling but obviously from those small matters, I seem like messing up your life more le.. Hmm..
Anyway, a whole week for not going to meet each other may let you feel relaxed abit as you don't have to come over after classes. If this works well, maybe just reduce the meet-up time after that, then he will not get tired.
Lion, do you ever know I do really love you? I love to be loved, but not to be criticized over my weaknesses... I can't help that I grow shorter than you. I only can try my best to learn how to cook well and be mature a bit.
I love you, joel quek!
