Etch in My Mind...♥†♥i miei ricordi con le mie...♥†♥

Just viewed wendy's blog and knew that the chinese's lunar valentine day is approaching in which it falls on the 7th night of the 7th lunar month. Hmm..I'm overwhelmed with happiness most of the time in this current relationship, yet I have decided to give each other some spacious time or room. Is it sounded ridiculous for couples who do that as being together not more than a month. Hmm.. seriously I don't know. Only realize that I am getting more rely on him. Sooner or later, he will find me very 'sticky' and annoying for him. Hmm..Hopefully, this is the final one. I am kind of wanna settling down. Hmm..

I guessed he had successfully mollify my anger by updating the blog.Hmm...yet I would like to post up this written piece (was written on Sunday).

Sometimes, guys just don't understand the thing that girl desires for or wants is very simple i.e. to be loved or cared. Well, I'm just a simple lady who is kind of sensitive nowadays. I do believe that he doesn't realize that I had actually angry of him these few days. HuH...The followings are the unspeakable mind:

Honestly speaking, I 'm quite satisfied with the current relationship and do hoped to settle down already. It's not a cinch to find the right person at the right time. I can't be sure that this guy will be the final man in my life, yet I am very sure that I very love him as I could very mind of his every single word. (I think he doesn't realize this.) I do wish that we can progress to higher level and appreciation+love+tolerance will be enhanced through the relationship.I hope it will last with fruitful felicity.

I noticed that I treat him differently towards the previous bf in which I always miss him, always hope to talk to him, willing to cook for him although I just knew the brief recipes, remember what he said and even open a particular website to share my thoughts. This guy is kinda special. He is quite mature in thinking and decision-making, a sporting guy and surprisingly, he knows how to cook and has boundless knowledge on computer software and hardware. He treats me quite well so far as willing to cycle to my house after classes and cook for me. We had cooked for each on 24Th of July 2010 and it was my first time to cook for a guy whom I love.

Our 2nd outing was on 1st of August and we went for a movie. Hmm..I was quite unhappy as the first thing he spoke to me when seeing me was scolding me because I was wanted to go down from the bus to his hostel area. HUH!!! Ain't it's supposed to be talk nicely when seeing your girl huh? Yet, I had got the scolding in the early morning and he did not have me acknowledged the exact place we were headed to. Haiz...

It was a nice movie although I still preferred the cinema in Batu Pahat as it's more spacious than in Carrefour. Hmm...his arms are really warm to be hugged. Well, is that so weird that a girl hugged a guy's hand huh? Haiz... I did have taken up courage to hug his arm le..yet being said as seducing him!!!GOSH~~~~ So embarrassing! I will never hug his arms anymore! In the evening, he came over for cooking one of my favourite foods i.e. spaghetti. I admitted that I really wish him could come over to cook it, yet it was 100% okay if he did not come over as I knew he was very tired that day...Hmm..perhaps should not ask him to go out for movie that day. Kinda guilty of it. Yet, due to opening the plastic bags of spaghetti and crab sticks wrongly, I had been scolded. Huh..compared to plastic bags, seem like plastic bag that contains the spaghetti is more worth for his love!!!ISH!...I wondered what will happened if I accidentally spoiled his favourite thing..will he abuse me huh?Huh... he could notice I am angry but he never try to understand why I am angry of...Obviously, he still doesn't understand me well.

He never know that I could be mind of his act or words. Hmm..holding hands are supposed to be sweet thing couples do, yet he thinks that it's kinda childish..Furthermore, he likes kidding me that I am too short compared to him when waking together... Nah..another thing, did not view those videos meant not sex-educated and immature. Then, hugging his arms considered seducing..Huh...Somehow, it made me wondering that why he chose me as his gf since I am short( no matter I undergo what strengthening bones process, the most also grow up to 3cm++), not mature, not pretty,does not know how to cook and bla bla bla. Well, after knowing from the girls' talk, I only realized that guy hates their gfs asking them to find another as sounding like not appreciate him and like not committing the relationship with heart and soul. Sorry about that as I think that frequently said sentence had been hurt your feeling but obviously from those small matters, I seem like messing up your life more le.. Hmm..

Anyway, a whole week for not going to meet each other may let you feel relaxed abit as you don't have to come over after classes. If this works well, maybe just reduce the meet-up time after that, then he will not get tired.

Lion, do you ever know I do really love you? I love to be loved, but not to be criticized over my weaknesses... I can't help that I grow shorter than you. I only can try my best to learn how to cook well and be mature a bit.

I love you, joel quek!

I guessed this blog has been neglected quite some time since we both were busy of our new sem's challenges. While waiting for hui en and siew chen's class ended,I had decided to take some time to drop down some memorable moments.

18th of July 2010,it's a great day as it was siew chen's bday and a noteworthy day for me and mr.joel quek. Purposely wearing the high heels so that able to decrease the difference of the height of us, yet I guessed I still more comfortable with my casual shoes. We went to Old Town, window-shopping at PC fair,watch shop, and accompanied him to buy his sandals. Then, we went to window-shopping at furniture+electrical stuffs shop, pc softwares and hardwares shop and Popular. I got to know what're his reading materials i.e. bicycle maganizes, home and furniture magazine and romance/love novels. * Why do men like sex while woman need love* Haha...gotta ask him to explain sooner or later. LOL!!!

Haha..this is a random post which is done before heading back to uni...Cya lion!!! By the way, I do hope that lion will not suddenly fall asleep when chatting with me again.Hmm..it made me wondered..IS THAT SO BORING TO TALK TO ME? =(

Hmm.. he's quite busy recently.I wondered if he had received my MMS today~I wasn't satisfied with the female voodoo doll as it seemed that I didn't do so well in art craft making d le..Hmm..anyway, 1st time doing lion voodoo doll n tied de hairs of de female voodoo doll in that way..LOL..

Hopefully will be ok when uni starts as he will be living farer than I expected before this. Hmm..

At 1.00am on 22nd of June,he called me out of the blue and he made confession. Haha..he said that to me by calling via hp for the 1st time..SWEET! But I still want face-to-face one le..haha..

Then I noticed, most of his messages he sent today, the word "deer' had been changed to "dear"..haha..

Can't wait to see the parcel he sent to me tomorrow..XD

Today, finally finished making something for him. Erm, if according to the original plan, then my job is unfinished yet~~ Haha..more specifically, I finished making one series only..Oh~~haha..Strangely, I miss him today.

I'm wondering does he know what is the meaning of our blog..haha



Hmm..wanna say something to you: THANKS FOR COMING TO MY LIFE~~

The blog was started to be owned by 2 authors since 15th of June 2010.
Yesterday, he set up his own blog finally, and I am kinda happy that I'm the one who had caused him to write blog..Haha..never know I have strong influence to him though..haha..We had been discussed what nicknames that we may call each soon~~

The results:

Joel==>> lion,monster, Hunny bear, hmm..de most..honey..haha..
me==>> sure is the sweet name..lol

Today, I went out gathering with my close friends and had lots fun of singingk and enjoying our desserts+ cozy chat. Hmm.. my close friend said that it might be better if finding bf when start working. This was due to guys easily disloyal or couples have different understanding after seperating and working separately. Hmm.. this had me thinking for awhile. Can he and me undergo the difficulties together?Will he betray me in later time? Will he be abusive? Hmm...am I overworried for a not-started-yet relationship.

I am worried because I think I never love a person that much out of sudden~~Hmm.. hormone problem huh?Hmm..Once I am in love with the person, the passion of love,dependence and care that will be given to him might be increasing. I do hope the efforts and love I give in the upcoming relationship might not like pouring water in the sand le..Life is uncertain, but I do hope the relationship will have fruitful felicity..=)

Kinda miss the person le..Hmm..

I Love You Toy

The strange feeling stitched in the inner heart~~...Hmm, I was like thinking of him quite usually nowadays.


Oh yea, he taught me how to use BASE64 codes. On 27th of May,he sent me a file which named "the answer lies inside 1" which contained the answer which I wished to hear from. In fact, I wasn't really confident in handling a long-distance relationship.Furthermore, I don't wish to be distracted from studying because of relationship. Hmm...can 2 of us strive hard in studies together while in love?!

Recently, we shared about our thoughts, past stories and etcetera almost every single day and night.He told me his darkest secret out of the blue at the silent night on 4th of June 2010. It had made me stunned for few moments, and didn't know how to reply his messages. Hmmm, I never have thought about it.It made me holding back my answer for his confession.

At the mean time, I was impressed by his honesty,trust and understanding.In reality, if we love a person, we might not care about his or her past. However, he chose to tell me about his past in which the dark spot that had imprinted might be possible to cause me changed my mind or influnce my decision.

LOVE= Tolerance, Communication, Trust, Understanding and the passion of love~

Love triggers the emotions of sufficient happiness when sharing opinons,feel loneliness or emptiness when apart, distractions or thoughts constantly wandering back to the person, certain level of jealousy when seeing them with someone else, and etcetera.


I am not perfect either, I hope he could tell me why he loves me by face-to-face.
Nah, not a pretty girl nor a smart one.



Love me not?

Marquee

I guessed love had knocked my heart's door inevitably...Love is in the air?So crisp and clean like I can almost taste it~~Hmm...Is there any specific reasons that why I falled in love with him?I noticed I had started to like him when he showed continuous concern towards me when I falled sick in hostel and his encouragement during my most terrible days in life. Before this, I was thought of avoiding him as his actions were quite misleading and had frightened me. Even though it's nice to be cared of, yet it might be unfair to treat a nice friend if I noticed he might had liked me. I still remembered how me and hui en struggled and avoided him when we watched the same movie " The Percy Jackson: The lighning Thief" at Batu Pahat Mall, however, at the end, we had been eating dinner together with his gang.

My roommate once declared that she could see that I was slowly trapped in love with him; joel, much to my astonishment, without me even mentioning his name often. She adviced me to follow the rhythm in my heart.Perhaps his acts( concerning me when I falled sick,tensed and worried when I was having trouble on 9th of April, always invited me to go for dinner together) were quite obvious indeed according what my male friends analysed.. (>.<)

Anyhow I was still confused not until he asked me out for a dinner on 3rd of May 2010.I had butterflies in my stomach all the way from hostel room to the Pondok, from the hostel main gate to the Parit Raja Restaurant and from there to Batu Pahat.It was the first time having dinner at a japanese restaurant i.e. Shokuraku at Batu Pahat. Well, I usually go to Sakae Sushi or Sushi King restaurant to eat sushi only. Looking at the main door and the design of the shop, I could sense the foods' price might be very high =expensive.

2 persons' dinner had been included Chanpon Ramen, Garlic Fried Rice, Sake, Aburi Slamon Mentai Mak, Unagi Temaki and Cappuccino which the bill's total was up to RM 76.45!!! Ouch..atually I did not know the Ramen he ordered was for me. Hmm..at the end, he even helped me to finish up the noodles. EMBARRASSING!!



Well, the main thing was not about the dinner, but was the declaration from him. He had admitted he liked me and he told me that he wished for a long-term relationship. I was silent in thought, thinking of should I accept his love. I may not be the right one~I told him that I will tell him the answer after my HR exam ended. Huh...the final paper was hardly to be revised as the scene of his "confession" kept playing in my head. Hmmmmm....

4th of May 2010, the day he went back to Melacca. I remembered the day because I had been teased by roommates badly. He and I had been eating breakfast together before he headed back to Melacca. The 6.30am breakfast had been postponed till 8am. I was kinda uncomfortable with the thought of many people might be misunderstood if seeing me and him eating together.. hmm..

6th of May 2010, My HR final exam had officially ended and that's the end of my 1st year uni life. I had been thinking carefully about whether should I tell him what I had been thinking all this recent days. Finally, I told him how's my feeling...

Uh..tried hard to import my old blog to this site.
Yet everything seems to be unsuccessful, hmm...hopefully my feedback to blogspot.com will be replied soon.